the hardest 6 months ever

i had the best and probably also the worst semester ever as long as i can remember
i don't really wanna talk about it but i just wanna share so that maybe one day if i read this again i'll remember i have been a tough one because i didn't cry :)
that was just amazing for me ahaha okay well i cried not until i had this tragedy and i promise myself not to cry if it is not worth and so i didn't
well some part of me forgot how it is to cry cause i just got so badly hurt
some part of me tells that i should just take those tragedies as my lesson
and so i did

aaah well i'm not in the mood to write so see you soon stories :)

ketika seteres mendera

jason mraz

come on jason mraz work your magic for one more time
did i went wrong that last time?
did i said something wrong that last time?
i don't remember what happened that time
i totally forgot
all i know is every time i send that human a message that human hasn't even reply me at all
in any kind of way did i do something wrong?
if i did then why don't you tell me?
i guess i just have to figure out that mistake by myself
well i told you that i was not in the mood so is it your time to have that not in the mood thing too?
does that not in the mood thing took you this long?
or am i just too childish for you to handle?

you say that you really want to fly, maybe you are flying right now
moving far far away from where i am now that you don't have any signal or something

oh God this is such a laugh

gatau judulnya apaan

i don't know how to say it but i feel bad
gw gatau mesti cerita sama siapa karena gw ngerasa apa yang bakal gw ceritain ga worth untuk gw ceritain
enggak sama sekali
setau mereka gw udah lepas
totally
but what if deep down i think i haven't
what if

gw udah jahat karena dijahatin
gosh karma is really working here
i didn't do it on purpose
i just want to be free that's why i was just so evil
now i feel bad
this is the bad side of me
they say i was just too good
so i start being bad
but what do you know i can't stand to be that bad
i feel sorry
i know i shouldn't but i can't stand it
i can't

ada sesuatu yang ganjel di diri gw
pengen dikeluarin
tapi gw gamau ngeluarin
ga akan pernah mau
bakal gw tahan terus sampe gw bisa lupa hal yang ngeganjel itu
gw ga bakalan minta maaf
karena gw ga salah
dilihat dari sudut mana pun
iya gw egois sekarang
untuk kali ini egois apa ga boleh?

no i can't spell it out for you, no it's never gonna be that simple

5w 1h

hello world how are you
i've change my old routine quite much lately
sleeping late (well that's kinda reappearing my old routine :p)
hanging with people i used to hang with when i'm in highschool but the difference is that i only hang with two of them coz only two of them live in the same city with me
and about that new-old thing i kinda feel weird
i don't know why
i think i'm happy with my new environment but somehow something feels so weird
i don't know what but it makes me think about something that is going wrong
and till now i can't figure out what
something tells me that something was going the wrong way
i don't know which
and i really wanna know which but i don't know where to ask

pity

ever take a pity of other people?
i have, and i've done it quite much lately
but one thing i don't like about pity is i don't like to be the one who's being pity
i don't know why but i feel so uncomfortable if someone take apity of myself
i try the hardest way not to be pity by other people
if they think that my situation is a pity i'll make myself happy
i'll make them realize that it's okay for me to be that way
in anykind of way i try my best to be as happy as i can

but sometimes, once in a while i took pity of myself
i don't know why but i did
well i think i know why but i just don't want me to really know why
hahaha

risih

have you ever feel uncozy with somebody or something?
i have, well i'm feeling it right now
i'm feeling not cozy with everything around me
why? i don't know
my head aches so much
my mind is somewhere far away from where i belong now
my body won't cooperate with me
okay i think i really don't feel good

i need a rest
a long one
so my mind will not be like what i have right now
negative thoughts all over my brain
GOSH GET IT OUT OF MY BRAIN PLEASE!!!

sumpah gw risih banget sama LO

Kurang atau Kelebihan Tidur Meningkatkan Lemak Perut

haha nice title isn't it?
yeah that's one of the article i was interest about i got that from detik.com
it says that if you sleep more or less than 6-7 hours kemungkinan penumpukan lemak lebih banyak
hey i sleep about 6-7 hpurs a day but tummy isn't going anywhere
haha i know it's because i eat a lotta food like a hell lot
and other time i barely don't eat anything

speaking of eating i think i should eat but my class starts like 15 minutes from now so i guess i can't eat that fast coz it's not good for my health
but on the other hand my class starts from 11 till 3.30 so do you think i could survive eating my own stomach while i'm having my class?!
insanely not

account

gw baru aja nyadar account gw banyak juga yah di dunia maya haha
guna ga sih? ga tiap hari juga gw buka
ada yang ampe bulukan ga pernah gw buka lagi soalnya gw lupa password dan segala macem
ada juga yang menurut gw pas abis gw sign up gw rasa ga guna buka2 situs itu lagi hahaha
gwnya aja kali ya yang gatau gimana ngegunainnya
sekarang klo gw itung2 account di situs2 gw yang masih aktif ada sekitar 8 lah
itu juga cuma 4 yang selalu gw buka tiap hari sisanya gw buka klo lagi senggang kaya sekarang
suka ketawa sendiri deh gw kalo inget gimana dulu baru gabung di suatu situs trus bego sendiri mau ngapain ga ngerti haha

apakah

what a day

what a weird day actually today is for me

i woke up this morning if you could still say 10 am is morning then i realize i got to go to my friend's house but somehow i don't feel good and my teeth-wisdom teeth my friend once told me- is growing and it is bugging me somehow coz i can't eat well for God's sake and i hate it coz i love to eat haha

so i text my friends and told them i couldn't come then after a couple of minutes watching NBA i fall asleep again

then i woke up again and i found out it's already like 2 pm so i better start my day somehow

so i turn on my pumpkin (that's my laptop's name haha) and thinking that watching Yes Man! would be a great idea to start my day coz my friend said that it's a funny movie

i hope that it is a VERY FUNNY movie but it turns out NOT

haha it is funny but not as funny as i want it to be

then suddenly i feel anxious

i don't know why but when i'm feeling that way my stomach doesn't feel good and it make me sweat a lot and it's cold

and i don't like it

i really don't

so i finally hehe took a bath then i feel better

haha

it actually is not weird isn't it?

it's not

what's weird is that you didn't text me today

well you did then i think you sleep through it haha

does it matter

okay what the hell is wrong with the connection??!!

i'm trying to upload some photos here hello!!

and it keep saying 'page error' and stuffs

come on you gotta be kidding me

haha

well what's good today is at least those people who i was angry with yesterday didn't bug me at all today :)