apakah

what a day

what a weird day actually today is for me

i woke up this morning if you could still say 10 am is morning then i realize i got to go to my friend's house but somehow i don't feel good and my teeth-wisdom teeth my friend once told me- is growing and it is bugging me somehow coz i can't eat well for God's sake and i hate it coz i love to eat haha

so i text my friends and told them i couldn't come then after a couple of minutes watching NBA i fall asleep again

then i woke up again and i found out it's already like 2 pm so i better start my day somehow

so i turn on my pumpkin (that's my laptop's name haha) and thinking that watching Yes Man! would be a great idea to start my day coz my friend said that it's a funny movie

i hope that it is a VERY FUNNY movie but it turns out NOT

haha it is funny but not as funny as i want it to be

then suddenly i feel anxious

i don't know why but when i'm feeling that way my stomach doesn't feel good and it make me sweat a lot and it's cold

and i don't like it

i really don't

so i finally hehe took a bath then i feel better

haha

it actually is not weird isn't it?

it's not

what's weird is that you didn't text me today

well you did then i think you sleep through it haha

does it matter

okay what the hell is wrong with the connection??!!

i'm trying to upload some photos here hello!!

and it keep saying 'page error' and stuffs

come on you gotta be kidding me

haha

well what's good today is at least those people who i was angry with yesterday didn't bug me at all today :)

he's just NOT that into you

it's a great movie

ahaha i guess tons of people had watch it before but i just watched it tonight

it gave me knowledge that i never knew before and of course some of them were just words that were slapping me into reality haha

it's just so nice you know to watch a movie like this movie

i get it that it is so nice to have someone you love turns out to have the same feeling as you do

i remember the last time i felt that way it was so nice i almost burst into tears then after a minute or so i really did cry because after a great happy feeling something bad came with it

and why on earth am i bringing that story up now

gosh i still wanna talk about it 

how freaking come?

ahaha i still can't forget that happy but tormented feeling

okay stop talking bout my past life and let's go back to the movie thing

i realize that the movie told me that sometimes what people think is the right thing may not be the right thing for us

that's a good lesson i got haha

i don't wanna be the rule but i wanna be the exception

haha i really do

hey smart boy hurry up and come and see me would you??haha

apalah

sumpah gw MARAH
i feel so angry today and these people wont stop bugging me
why don't they? gatau apah orang udah ngasih sinyal bales sms pendek2 that means i don't wanna communicate with you right now or maybe forever!!
argh
you know i'm kinda sick of these people whose writing is so GAOL they think like 'QmUu knPaHh sicH?kanT blablabla' i can't stand those people who write those kind of text or messages to me
oh God i don't know why i'm so angry today
i feel annoyed by others
oh please leave me alone now
this is the time where you need to stay away from me, why? coz u are so freaking annoying haha
i wanna scream so loud to get this anger out of me

new entry

it's my first blog and i don't know what to share here

i don't know why but i feel so sad today
i thought i had forgot someone already
i thought I've let him go but then i realize i haven't
yap it's boys stuff i'm talking about here
sorry but that's on my head right now

i'm on vacation now but i keep thinking about him somehow and now i can't stop it
geeeeez help meh
it's been years since me know what happened happened
i thought i have let everything go but then now tonight i realize i haven't
so sad isn't?

lately i feel strange to hear love songs coz my bestfriend turn out to have some feelings on me but i don't so i feel so weird about it and now i think i wouldn't be that close to boys in my college
why?
coz what i thought was only friends stuff turns out to be more for them and i don't want anymore 'victim' for me haha
pede banget gw yah
tapi itu kenyataan yang menurut gw aneh
damn freak
i'm not gorgeous or something
i'm just so plain and ordinary nah i'm not ordinary but i'm messy that's why i feel odd with them haha

okay these things are just spilling out of my head
next time i'll post something not berbau cowo
i promise

i just need to let these things out

sumpah gw ga suka ngerasa begini haha

merindukan yang tidak merindukan

daaaaaaaaaang

i'm tired
i'm confused but happy at the same time
kinda weird huh?

oh gosh my sweet cat i think is dying
i still hope he can make it through this night

i'll be more innovative on the next post haha

kampungan yah
maklum blog pertama and post pertama hehe
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xoxo kikia