TOTALLY ALONE

udah beberapa hari teakhir ini gw ngerasa sendiri
as in totally alone in and out
gatau kenapa gw ngerasa gt
padahal disekeliling gw banyak orang
and i got a lotta people who will always be there when i need, i knew that alright
but somehow i feel that they're just so far i can't even reach them
and some well most them i don't feel cozy to tell my stories to them

gw pengen banget cerita apa yang ada di hati gw yang ganjel di pikiran gw pengen banget gw keluarin tapi gw gatau mau ngasih tau siapa
yang gw tau bisa gw ceritain cuma NYOKAP
my lovely mom who keeps saying sarangeo before hanging off the phone and adding aishiteru after i said love you too
but i don't wanna be that selfish little girl who always moan to her mom
i've grown
if i told her what i feel then how would i think she felt back then?
she's totally alone too
dad's off to work outside and my sist is working also
so i just got to hold it
i won't let it spill
not a bit
i love you too much mom
i won't let anything spoils it again

and i won't cry (....)