it is called missing

i've been missing a lot of things lately

sometimes i think that missing those things is useless, it will only make you're mind and heart weak and stuff

but suddenly i think that missing things is not a thing that will make you weak or something, it will make you appreciate

*gw lagi eling nih hhahaha

for example

when i'm missing my cat i start to appreciate the times i've had with my cat

it goes the same way too with missing my home with the most lovable persons in it

missing is a beautiful feeling

even if when i'm feel like missing something or someone so much it feels so lonely and sometimes makes my eyes swell haha

but missing is a feeling i think which is powerful 

when you love someone you must have miss him or her

when you hate someone you probably would miss him or her either right

when you get something you'll miss those moments when you were trying to get what you are having now

there's always something to be miss at

and right now i miss being told what to do

i really like what i have now

i love to do anything i wanna do without anyone to tell me i should do this or that

but somehow i miss to be told

i feel so free right now

like those curfew i use to have when i'm in bogor

i can't come home late

but now i can come home anytime i want

well it doesn't mean that i went home late everynight, it's just that when i really need to come home late i can enter my room

but that freedom i have now sometimes makes me feel like nobody care about me even if i went home late

haha

i know that things i just said should be done too

but sometimes when i meet the real world i forgot what i have written here 

LOL