missing

did i tell you how much i miss my old life?

i miss it so much

but i think i kinda love my new one too

i learn a lot from my old mistakes that were too much to mention and i think i learn the hard way

i closed some doors i should have closed before and open some new ones

i choose things i haven't ever choose it before

finding something new

finding something more precious

looking for something fresh

i think i'm a step a head from who i am before

i choose to do things which involve with other people and i prefer lots of them

and i am starting to join stuff like activities which makes a lot of people happy

like the beach tour i had last week which will happen again this week and for this week i'll help them clean their environment which in Indonesian language is called kerja bakti

well at first i had to choose between that activity which is fun but tiring at the same time and a journey to nowhere with my high school friends which is surely fun but i don't know if will make other people happy too

haha cheesy

i want to live a life which is useful to other people

hello i'm 20 for God's sake so i think i better choose the right way to walk down the road to heaven haha

ngawur bener nih yang gw ketik

i haven't entering more post to my lovely blog since i haven't have much time and connection to the network but i guess i'll follow up my stories so that i could read it again and again in the future even if my diary isn't around anymore

:D