a little weird

i don't know why i feel a little weird lately
i start to stop calling names
i start to act like who i am when i was in senior high
i start to stop respecting people who used to be respected by me
i feel odd
i feel angry
i think i'm mad
mad at myself and mad to other people as well
i can't understand myself and neither do otherself
places which used to be fun for me doesn't feel the same anymore
places where i used to not like is somehow in somewhat way so cozy for me well not that cozy i mean
i think gw udah betahan tinggal di jogja
something told me to stay and i stayed
something told me that i will survive and find happiness here that's why i stay and i wait and wait till the thing that told me to stay and wait comes out from it's chamber to tell me what i was looking for for all of this time
something beautiful will come i guess
i'm feeling it somehow

i don't know if i'm acting so mature lately but i think i should start to change little by little coz i'm old now
well not that old i mean just old enough to know what's right and wrong
to stop whinning
to stop crying
to stop depending on other people
to stop mad at people when they done something wrong
just start to forgive as much as you want to be forgiven by people when you've made a mistake
just start to give advice to yourself and do what you think is right and do what you advice to other people

tiba-tiba pengen yoghurt cimory haha