wanted stuff

I wanted to say sorry to him but maybe he will ask me what for then I couldn’t answer that question
I can’t stop this guilty feeling
I should text him maybe then at least I could answer freely coz I don’t have to face him

I wanted to say ‘it is never the same again’ to him
But he will ask me or comment something and I don’t really want to communicate with him in any kind of communication
I can’t stop feeling irritated with him

I wanted to say I like you a lot and I want to have something special with you to him but maybe he will ran out and doesn’t want to meet me anymore
Or maybe he’ll agree with me
I can’t stop liking you now

I wanted to ask you ‘are you happy now?’ but I couldn’t because I feel like I don’t have anything to do with you anymore
But everytime I see your face your smile your stare it has change a lot
And I don’t see happiness like I’ve seen before when we were so happy
So are you happy now after everything that has happened?

I wanted to say ‘why are you so far away even though I went so far from home just to catch you?’
I already know the answer though
But I wanted him to know that thing
Or not
Oh God I don’t know but if this is the way it’s all supposed to be then let it be

I’m okay