envy

i just found out that one of my high school friend who has been studying abroad for a year in america is going to america again and i think she got some kind of scholarship or something

gosh i am so envying her

i really want to get a scholarship like that

i just haven't found it yet

maybe it's because i never look for it before

dang i really want to

well i would like to go back to my elementary school once more before i die of course and live there once more but not for 2 years maybe

i just want to get out of this country once more

and if that happens i wish yeah i really wish that i go by my one money

i don't want my parents to pay for it now

haha

hopes and dreams

i hope i dream while i'm awake so that i am living my dreams

hehe